Lovely~

As the title says it, yesterday was Father's Day. To be honest, this is the hardest topic for me to write. To start off, I've always been a Daddy's girl. I love my mom a lot too and we're like best friends but it's a whole different thing between a Father & Daughter. Unfortunately, things aren't the same anymore. I'll try my best to tell you my story and hopefully, you won't cry as much as I do. 

My parents divorced back in 2006 so that's been 10 years now. I've lived with my mom most of the time. For a time period (probably over a year a bit), it was tough for her, trying to find jobs. I ended up living with my dad for awhile and his "new" family immigrated over to live with us. It was the gloomiest time of my life. The moment they came, everything downfalls. I hated life. I tried to be nice to them, but I always turn out to be outcasted and the "mean" one. During my Senior year of high school, literally a month after I turned 18, the "lady" kicked me out of the house/family, stating that I'm rude to her and she can't stand me anymore. I was terrified. No where to stay, no job; my mom was out of state and I was still going to school. Out of the all the times, I wanted to see my dad's reaction and opinion to this. I want to see how he feels about me and he only comments "You're 18 now. You decide what you want to do. If you want to live here, you have to go under my rules." I don't know how to describe how painful I felt that day. My mother had to quit her job immediately and flew back as soon as possible. We both lived at her friend's house for me to continue going back to school. You can actually call us homeless. We went through another round of hardships (The first round was when my parents just divorced. My mom had a huge hard time.) because of what he chose to do. 

I loved my father a lot, however, he always had broken my heart. I forgave him and try to forget but it just lingers on. When I was small, I was really scared of him when I get in trouble. Never once did he yelled at me or hit me. He strictly tells me what I did wrong and then hugs me until I finished crying. He's always been the shoulder-to-cry on when I'm down. As I get older, never once have I ever disappoint him. As I reflect, I couldn't figure out where did everything went wrong. Was it me? Did I do something wrong? Then I thought I'm still trying to find excuses, putting the blame on me on what was done. Why did I do that? 

If anyone had watch the Korean Reality Show from KBS "The Return of Superman", my relationship with my dad is like Choo Sarang & Choo Sunghoon. Seeing so many pictures and people enjoying their relationship with their Fathers made me felt so happy for them. Even though I'm very upset about what has happened, I now felt at ease on what I wanted in my life. One day when I get married, no matter how scared I am, I would be walking down that aisle without him. He would not be there nor would be replaced by anyone else. I'll give my Father-in-law all the love that I would've gave to my father. I would make sure my children deserve a father who would take care of them and love them more than I do. If I bumped into him somewhere one day, I would be walking away like I never knew him. I'm not seeking revenge because I believe karma would get them back, however, I want to make sure I make a statement that without them, I will survive and live happily. The best revenge is kill them with kindness. One day they'll realize what they had missed. The day he refused to keep me, is the day his daughter died and I was born again (Partical credits to Furious 7 ^^ hehehe).

In conclusion, hoped everyone enjoyed their Father's Day. If you have a Father and take them for granted, please do whatever you can to fix that and keep your relationship strong because there's people out there who doesn't have a Father and/or is neglected by a Father like me. 

To start off the topic, in my life so far, I had worked for 3 companies (which I do not wish to state. Some might know already but I don't want to mention it in this topic). Generally, Company one is a fast food chain, Company two is a retail store, and Company three is an attorney's office. Not to mention two unofficial employments; one is at a local Vietnamese restaurant and a new travel/tour agency that couldn't continue business. Today I want to share with you my working experience and feelings, especially when the topic of "resignation" is involved. 

Out of all the places I've ever worked at, I've enjoyed my time at Company one the most. I started as a crew member, to trainer and made my way to the management team. I am honored and proud to be the youngest manager at that restaurant. During those 3 years I've spent there, there's so many memories whether they're good or bad, I never regretted working there. My experience was really significant. Unfortunately, they company is under-rated due to the public mentioning their name/food is bad for you. (C'mon. It's fast food. Most fast food chains are like that.) However, I have to admit they're really efficient on building their team and business. I had a tough time to make my way up but resources are available for me to reach my goals. (No wonder why they're financially really successful. It's a win-win.)

The reason why I left this company to Company three is becauase...they hit three strikes. Confused huh? I believe (and probably you had heard) some good reasons to quit your job is because of either salary is not enough, you got a higher position opportunity, and/or you're not getting along with the people working there. Company three gave me that and that's what made mde decided to leave.Of course there's also you're moving away, personal family matters, etc. I felt bad to leave because I've enjoyed my time there and they've helped me become much more confident in myself. Most of the staff are amazing too (except some upper management x_X common problem at work.) 

Back to the main topic, resignation. Everyone knows to give notice at least 2 weeks in advanced to end things between you and the company. Unfortunately with all my employments, resignation has been up and down. I wasn't able to complete 2 weeks notice and end things not the way I wanted. I resigned Company two so easily because they didn't even give me work. When I submitted my resignation letter, I didn't even need to complete 2 weeks. For Company one to Company three, it was upsetting due to two schedules at the same time. I had no choice but to leave Company one early for Company three.

Recently, I've also resigned Company three. I felt bad for sudden noticed but to think about it.....I had no regrets. There was too many problems encountered at work. I was treated like a slave and they kill my dignity in front of others. I mean, I've made mistakes and I've encountered lots of problems at Company one between staff, management and customers, but never once was I offended for who I am. Company three was too much! Resignation was a beautiful dream every single day I went to work and once I was able to leave, I don't know whether if it was a nightmare or a sweet revenge. Why? It's because when someone treats you unhumanily like them, you'll never know what evil thoughts and actions they would do to you. I don't regret leaving suddenly and broke the 2 week noticed rule. To be honest, I gave them 2 days and didn't even complete it. Yes, I felt bad but when you're scared, how would you continue? 

I find it really funny about Company three is that between me and the boss are in good terms, except some people in "between" causing the main reason why I left. I've learned that high turnover in a company/business, it's a huge red flag for the bosses to know "there's something going on within management." Unfortunately, I also fell into that trap and ended up leaving but I wish my boss would understands that.

Before I left, one of the "betweens" tried or liked to "give me a lesson" about what I'm doing is wrong and they're right. To be honest, all I heard is "blah blah blah blah blah...." People these days need to realize "Actions are stronger than words." (Because their words are so strong, I have to take action to be even with them.) I did pay attention to what they've said and they have my sincere respect and appreciation for their work/effort, however, if you're setting bad examples and looked down on people, who is going to listen to you? Respect is gained when you appreciate other people and trust them. You have to earn it. Also, the main purpose of the conversation is to "think about your actions," well they should think about their actions too. You look dumb! You kill a fire with water or a fire extinglisher, but not with oil or gas; it's just going to cause more damage. I'm the type that kills people with my kindness. I don't need to waste my time for unless things. I barely said anything and only observed. I kept my side short and simple. You think I can't do it so I give up and leave; what's the purpose of staying? Lecturing me on? You think that would work? Just make yourself look more dumb. I leave because of the nonsense lectures, not to hear more of it. You're probably asking why did I wasted my time to listen to them right? I do have a few reasons. It's because I get to see them go crazy & I get to hear what they have been thinking. Inside themself, they would think they're royal and have a good reputation; with these actions, they're lower than the word low. I find myself from being defeated to defeat them. I keep my dignity with my kindness. It's strong, effortless, and makes you worthy. They have no right to say I was wrong because I was never once said or did anything offensive and in this case, I didn't even do anything at all. 

Everyone has a temper. I do too (proof is the rage in the previous paragraph). However maintaining it is the key. It helps you from getting negativity, stress, and gives you a significant reputation. Always remember you're in control of everything. Don't let them take over you and bring you down because you deserve what's best for you. Life isn't always perfect and equal but to succeed, you have to overcome it and mend it to become more perfect and equal. Move forward to positivity. Leave negativity behind. 

AMR 1: https://youtu.be/LqBFijZAFjI

Wow! Talk about going back in time x_X

I choose this song as the first song to review because it's the first song that got me into Kpop. I was introduced to Kpop since 2006 (Yes. It's been 10 years.)

Brief of my music history. At that time, I was into Chinese/Taiwanese music (with bands, such as Twins & S.H.E). I tried to find many different websites as possible to listen to their music. One of the was Tialia (if you're Vietnamese & remember this website, koodos to you!). As I'm browsing, I noticed this video that continues to be on the Top Viewed for a LONG time. I was like "Who are they? What's with them and that song?" I decided to watched their music video and I'm sorry to say but my first impression was like "-.-......................Huh?" 

The song is strangely catchy. I don't understand what they're saying. I couldn't figure out what language it is. I'd force myself to listen to it until I eventually like it and then I started to fell in love with TVXQ. Funny how it started huh? I bet all of you hardcore, dedicated TVXQ fans are now going to kill me on how I'm explaining this but it's my honest explanation on how I started to like them. 

"Rising Sun" is one of their most successful songs and classic Kpop hit. Even though I was really heart broken about the band members splitting out, I still kept the faith and love for all of the members. I believe one day, they'll get together again and remember those good old times performing as a group of 5.

This song is significant to me because in the past few years, I was able to meet JYJ first, when they came to Las Vegas to perform their U.S. Showcase. I also get to meet HoMin at another event in Las Vegas called KpopMasters. Their final song that they've perform at KpopMasters was "Rising Sun." In my head that night, I was thinking "Wow! This is like a chapter closing in my Kpop history book. Beginning with Rising Sun and ending with Rising Sun. I finally could open a new chapter." 

Ugh~ Cheesy right? Anyway, my thoughts of this song is really artisy. A Pop-Rock song kinda feel. Music video starting off with introduction of the members at different perspectives. U-Know, the sweating boxing guy. Hero, the guy standing in the church. Max, standing in the middle of a club. Micky, standing out in a balcony, viewing the gloomy sky. Xiah, the sweating drummer boy.

What's great about this song is the dynamic choreography. Today, these dance moves are nothing, however, it's pretty tough keeping up with this dance back in the day. I would say TVXQ started an evolution with this song. (Even though it looks kinda funny now.) Xiah: sweet & warm voice, cool red hair guy. Micky: didn't like the hairstyle at all! but love his rap. U-Know: tough charismatic guy with amazing dance moves. Max: handsome face and amazing high note before the ending verse. Hero: the cool guy that's like a cherry on top of sundae. Overall this song is daebak!~

Hello everyone~

I'd like to announce the official launch of my website for the public view. I've worked on-and-off this website for a few years now, however, I've decided to published it today. There's still lots of work that needs to be done so I'm sorry if it looks empty but please anticipate new items on it soon. I will try to make it look stylish as I can. 

As you browse this website, I'd wish to share & learn new things in life for others who have similar feelings, thoughts, and experiences as I do. Long story short; since I was a little kid, my life has been tough. I try many ways to overcome any obsticles in life. With my experiences, I want to express my feelings and share how I resolve those matters, especially to those who's going through the same thing. I know there's a lot of people out there, all over the world, going through tougher times or easier times than me. I want to use this opportunity, through this website, to build a community helping those in need of an encouragement and motivation. Happiness is positive building block of life. You create it and let it lead you to whatever you want to do, wherever you want to go, and whoever you want to be. 

Anyway, thank you for joining my website. Please have a great time while you're here. Please spread the love throughout the website and to everyone you wish. 

Love~

♥HV